I am a Facilitator of Healing....
Here I am, at 40 years old (at the end of this month) just now figuring out the answer to the age old question we are asked throughout all of grade school and high school.
“What do you want to be when you grow up?”
Back then, it was filled with answers like a doctor, a surgeon, a firefighter, and I think Vet was on the piece of paper that I wrote the answer on, at some point. It seemed like such a simple question, but as I get older, I am finding out that this question is far more complex than we give it credit. I always knew I wanted to help people. The need to help people was written in my DNA, and I knew it was the answer to that question, I just didn’t know how.
I spent 20 years in the restaurant industry, doing everything from serving tables to being a general manager. Honestly, I loved being around people and problem solving. Each table brought new challenges to face, new ideas, new personalities. Sure, we got a lot of the same questions, and we got a lot of people complaining about the same things, but overall, I really enjoyed the industry. Until one day, I didn’t. It just stopped, like a clock taking its last tick.
It didn’t happen because of the people, or the job itself. It was just time for a change. That quick. I felt that yearning you get when it’s time for a complete overhaul to your life. It was like I was finally waking up, because it was in that instant, I knew I wanted to do massage therapy, as well as my yoga training.
By the following month, I was enrolled in school, and quitting my $65k a year job. There I went, from making a good income to being a student again.
There are many reasons one would want to be a massage therapist. There are as many paths to walk in massage therapy, as there are with lawyers. We have divorce attorneys, real estate attorneys, criminal law, corporate law, and the list goes on. No one person could do all of it. Well, the same can be said for massage therapy. There are people that like to work with spa treatments, cancer patients, kids, sports medicine, chiropractic, general wellness, and the list goes on, and on, and on.
The real question for me throughout school, as well as this last year following school, was "what kind of massage therapist do I want to be?" Anyone who knows me, knows that this is something I thought about day and night. It became an obsession. It was like piecing together a puzzle with no pictures to look at. In the end, I knew I wanted to build something that meant something to me. I wanted to build something that could help others, and even help change their lives. I wanted to give people a chance for health, and healing, both physically and mentally. Internally, and externally. It was while I was going through school, that I had the vision of becoming a healer. It’s actually more of a facilitator of healing.
Like many others out there, I have experienced a great amount of trauma. Different trauma’s throughout my life. Some from childhood, while others are from my young adult life. I have stumbled through many of them, and have a yearning to help others stumble through them too. I want to help people that others have given up on, or think there is no hope for, through a beautiful practice of yoga, mediation, and massage.
I want to give people who have been constantly thrown back into the system a chance to live, outside of the system. I want to help drug addicts reclaim their lives. I want to help people who have suffered enough trauma throughout their lives, that they don't know which way is up, or where to go. I want to give these people the tools of yoga, meditation and massage, so that they can find healing within themselves and from the universe. I want to create an environment so that this can be possible for those people.
So many times, the judiciary system fails these people. Sometimes, the 12 step program fails these people. Sometimes, talk therapy isn't enough. There is not a one size fits all, and sometimes people need more to help them with their process. There is a need to give these people something else that coincides with their current treatment(s).
We are finding out every day through new studies that yoga can help the mental, and physical, well-being of individuals who practice daily. We are also finding out that meditation is something that everyone should be doing daily for at least 5 minutes a day. Touch therapy (massage), in a safe environment, has given people a chance to have human connection on their own terms, and through studies, we are finding out how important it is for people to have that touch, and connection in their lives.
My goal is to utilize breathing exercises (Pranayama), Asana (physical exercise), meditation, group sessions (connection to community), and massage therapy to help people feel better in their own bodies, minds, and to help them reach deep into their spirit for the healing they need to become more comfortable with who they are, and who they want to become. If we can help them do that, then they can move on to live their lives at maximum potential!
I am still working out the kinks as to how I am going to make this happen. So far, I am well on my way to exploring this, and I have many notes written down in my notebooks. It’s like looking at a madman’s writings on his desk. As I plug away every day at it, it gets slightly neater, and the picture starts to get much clearer.
Right now though, I am happily practicing massage out of my sublet room, in downtown Lee’s Summit. I can’t wait to share experiences with you as I build this from the ground up! I am positive there will be blood, sweat, tears, and pain through the growing process, but I wouldn’t change it for the world. It’s through the tough times that I continue to grow and learn, and share those lessons and experiences with others.
~P.S. Writing this made me think that I should say thanks to my husband for supporting me in this wild, and crazy, decision. It wasn’t easy when I went back to school, but they hung in there like champs! So...Thank you to my wonderful husband, and daughter, for supporting me through that hectic time. Cheers for the future, and the big ideas we have!